Until I got a revelation that I had a choice to be embarrassed or not be embarrassed, I felt like I was walking on egg shells sometimes, afraid to make mistakes for fear of what people would say or think.
Take for example, I wasn’t as free as I am now to lift my hands in worship or praise God openly in front of others. I don’t remember when, but I do remember making the decision that I had too much to be thankful for to be a closet worshipper. I can remember the day that I first stood up and started waving my hands, praising and singing in service, when it seemed like I was the only one standing. At that point, in my mind it didn’t matter who was looking or if others were doing the same thing or what they were saying or thinking. Even in all of my mess I was up on my feet.
The more I began to follow the leading of the spirt of God living on the inside of me, the more liberated I became. What I also discovered is that people are looking for people in the earth who are willing to make a bold stand for Christ. So it wasn’t just for me, it was for someone watching. I may be the only Jesus some people will ever see, so I cannot make it about me. I am the light of the world. I am this earth’s answer. If I fall back because I don’t want to be embarrassed by what people may be thinking or saying, I am failing in my responsibility as a born again believer of Jesus Christ. I am a minister of reconciliation, helping to reconcile this world back to God. I told God that He could use me to help win the world back to Him. It matters more to me what God thinks of me than what anybody else thinks of me.
I truly believe that depression is rooted in needing approval and acceptance from people. We can get so caught up in the opinions of people that we suppress the voice of God, especially if it goes against the grain of how we were raised. Following God is not always the most popular stance, but it’s the most rewarding.
Prayerfully this blog has been helpful. This is just an example, there are many more, but my relationship with God is the bedrock on which every other area of my life is built on. If I keep this part of my life right, I will have no problems using the same principles in the other areas of my life.
Stay in peace with God!
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